Shania Twain on divorce: “I didn’t want to live”

Twain had learned that her husband was in a relationship with Marie-Anne Thiebaud, assistant and friend of the singer.

“I didn’t want to live,” she told Oprah Winfrey.

The Canadian star now sees the failure of his marriage in a positive light: “It was a very positive thing. I needed the wake-up.”

Lange and Thiebaud have never admitted that they were having an affair and Twain doesn’t yet known details of their relationship.

In an interview with Oprah Winfrey, Twain admits she tried to get answers and get her husband back. She even wrote to Marie-Anne Thiebaud, asking : “Why are you torturing me? Let it go, please. Find love somewhere else from someone else.”

“I know it was pathetic. But we all have pathetic moments. No one is above this type of low,” the country superstar, 45, says.

While attempting to recover from her divorce, Twain turned to the husband of Marie-Anne, Thiebaud Frederick. They ended up falling in love and married in January in Puerto Rico.

Twain is now trying to regain her voice. She recently consulted a doctor in Nashville who diagnosed a problem with her vocal cords, as the muscles are tightened in her throat. The artist attributes this condition to years of fear: having witnessed domestic violence in childhood, the death of her parents and years of stage fright before going on stage.

“I’ve trapped my own voice, and now I’ve got to unwipe all that. I really can’t imagine not singing again,” she says.

This episode of the talk-show aired Tuesday, May 3. Shania’s new TV series premiers Sunday on OWN: The Oprah Winfrey Network..