In her new memoir called Bossypants, Tina Fey recounts her struggle over the decision to have a second child or not.
Getting pregnant for the second time took Tina a lot of sleepless nights and serious questioning, as she reveals in her new book.
But during a visit to her gynecologist, she couldn’t take it anymore.
“I went for my annual checkup and, tired of carrying this anxiety around, burst into tears the moment she said hello,” she writes. “I laid it all out for her, and the main thing I took away from our conversation was the kind of simple observation that only an impartial third party can provide: ‘Either way, everything will be fine.’ ”
After eventually deciding to have the second child, she had to face the issue of blending work and family, as a woman working in showbiz and entering her 40s.
“I get up to go to the bathroom and study myself in the mirror,” she writes. “Do I look like someone who should be pregnant? I look good for 40, but I have the quaggy jawline and hollow cheeks of a mom, not a pregnant lady. It’s now or never. This decision can’t be delayed.”
As she weighed the pros and cons, she wondered, “What’s so great about work anyway? Work won’t visit you when you’re old. Work won’t drive you to get a mammogram and take you out after for soup.”
However, she finally decided: “Hollywood be damned. I’ll just be unemployable and labeled crazy in five years anyway.”