Almost 500 guests came to say goodbye to Julien Hug, the troubled ‘Bachelorette’ contestant who committed suicide last week, at a memorial in Rancho Santa Fe, California.
Julien was found dead from a self-inflicted gunshot wound on November 3 in a remote area near the San Bernardino National Forest, about 90 miles south of Los Angeles, a few days after being reported missing.
According to Radar Online, before killing himself, the reality TV star wrote a heartbreaking suicide note to his parents, along with messages to his family, co-workers and his girlfriend, in which he said: “If life’s not enjoyable, why stick around?”
His grieving parents, Denise and Bertrand Hug, decided to share the contents of their son’s suicide note with those in attendance.
“This will hurt you,” he wrote. “I am so sorry to do this to you. I feel only love for you mom and dad. But I’m terribly sad everyday. I hurt. People will think I took the easy way out. I say I took the smart way out….”
In closing, he wrote, “Tell everyone I love them. Make sure everyone knows that I just want to be in peace. I love everyone. I’m so sorry to have to do this. It’s the only way I know how. Julien.”
As Radar reports, Hug’s girlfriend, Jennifer Bell, spoke to mourners about her heartbreak, saying Julien was her ‘life’.
“I will miss every night where we would lie in bed and before he went to sleep he would whisper in my ear and say I love you.”
Readers seeking support and information about suicide prevention can contact the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline on 1-800-273-TALK (8255).