Mel Gibson allegedly begged for forgiveness and Oksana Grigorieva allegedly still loves him

The first part might not be true also but there are some evidence, as TMZ found out.

So, after the January 6 meltdown, Mel Gibson dropped to his knees and begged Oksana Grigorieva for forgiveness, according to sources connected with the case.

It seems Oksana gave L.A. County Sheriff’s investigators an email in which Mel told Oksana he wanted to “come by to make amends to you, Sacha and Lucia.”

He added, “I spent 2 hours with a therapist today & have regained some perspective. What I’m telling you now is I am safe.”

Oksana replied: “I have two broken front teeth and a concussion. I cannot c u today, I’m hurting.”

Mel then responds: “Did you get them fixed yet? When can I see you. I need to see you this evening & then I promise I’ll leave you alone for as long as you want if only for 10 minutes Please.”

Oksana has told Sheriff’s investigators Mel showed up at the house unannounced later that day, came inside, began to cry and begged for forgiveness.

It seems there are hundreds of emails that went back and forth between Oksana Grigorieva and Mel Gibson.

Here is one of them, sent by Oksana on March 30, 2010 about the tapes she secretly recorded.

In this email she said “Depite all the pain I endured, I still love you,” believing that a love like the one between them doesn’t “die so quickly”.

“U always said u r here for a long hold and that’s what I beilived,” she added. “I still don’t know what I’ve done to u to be treated the way I have been.”

Oksana can’t accept the way he stopped loving her, blaiming on his “issues” with his mother and on the influences of Robyn – his ex-wife – and Hanna – his daughter.

“I don’t belive that u stopped loving me just in one phonecall. U either stopped loving me a long time ago or u still love me.”

Oksana then tells Mel she played one of the secretly-recorded messages from February 18 to her lawyer.

“As far as the tapes go, I only played one to my lawyer, becouse on march 15 Michelle proposed on ur behalf not a very generous gift for our daughter and there was nothing for me.”

Although that sounds like Oksana is trying to use the tape to squeeze money out of Mel, one of her current lawyers, Daniel Horowitz, told TMZ Oksana was extremely reluctant to play her lawyer the tape but felt threatened by Mel’s legal team.

Horowitz cites this portion of the email, “My lowyers warned me that ur lawyers are cabaple of false fabrication about me in the press, i.e., an unfit mother, a prostitute etc so u can have the baby and I get to go to my ‘f…ing moth hole’ as u told me. I had no choice, after all of this I had to play one message to them.”

Daniel Horowitz told TMZ, “Oksana was legally entitled to play all of the tapes for her lawyers and most clients would have done so. She was being supremely careful of Mel’s privacy because she knew that even lawyers in Hollywood might lose track of the tapes and she didn’t want to hurt him. This is the opposite of extortion. It’s someone in love who wants things to get better.”

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Oksana Grigorieva to launch the offensive

With the help of her new lawyers, Martin Garbus and Daniel Horowitz, Oksana will file a lawsuit against Mel Gibson, the father of Lucia, for all of the above.

Garbus and Horowitz will serve her reps in connection with the domestic violence investigation against Gibson and the extortion probe against Oksana.

Moreover, they will also argue that Gibson is unlawfully blocking the release of her music.

As for the civil battery case against Gibson, who Oksana says hit her in the face and threatened her life, sources say the plan is to file it by the end of 2010.

An additional aid is given by Violet Kowal who also says she has tapes of her own to prove that she was railing Mel while Oksana was pregnant.

Oksana Grigorieva is asking Mel Gibson more money for Lucia, their daughter

Oksana Grigorieva is asking the judge to determin Mel Gibson to pay much more than $5000 for her monthly child support. She wants more than $40,000, according to TMZ sources.

Mel Gibson pays, besides her monthly child support, the Sherman Oaks house where they live. But she wants almost ten times more!

Interesting enough, Oksana gets $2,500 a month in child support from Timothy Dalton — the father of her 13-year-old son Alexander, says TMZ.

Indeed, it’s hard to convince Judge Scott Gordon that a 9 month old baby needs nearly 20 times more money than a 13 year old boy.

One source scoffed, “Lifestyle is not an issue for a 9-month-old. Think she knows the difference between a Ford and a Bentley?”

Sources say Judge Gordon has not ruled on Oksana’s petition for more dough.

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Lucia’s babysitter employed by Mel Gibson died

It was known she was fighting with a stage-four cancer and died over the weekend. The unnamed woman was present at the actor’s Malibu home on one night of January 6, when Oksana dropped off her and Mel’s infant daughter Lucia before going out for the evening.

Before the incident Oksana went to a basketball game, leaving Mel, baby Lucia and the babysitter at Mel’s Malibu home.

According to sources connected with the case, the babysitter says Mel “began freaking out” while Oksana was gone, “slamming doors, cussing and screaming at someone on the phone.” The babysitter says Mel was screaming to someone on the phone, “I want to f**king destroy you.”

After that, the babysitter called Oksana and urged her to come home because Mel was losing it. The babysitter claims, “Mel was possessed and completely out of control.”

Did Mel Gibson threatened to hit his daughter, Lucia?

According to Oksana, Mel said he would “hit” little Lucia, their baby girl, during an explosive blow-up with his ex-lover, saying “‘Take her! I will hit her!”.

This incident apparently happened on February 18.

If this ever proves to be true, we’re pretty sure he was extremely angry when he said that, BUT … nevertheless … no matter how nervous he was … under no circumstances he shouldn’t even think of that.

Anyway, it seems that this is the apparent reason why Mel supposedly texted her to say he “wasn’t safe for you last night.”

He may realised in just what state of mind he was … just how severe he lost his mind a night earlier.

Back on the story, on the 18th, Mel Gibson and Oksana Grigorieva should have a party, celebrating their three-months-old daughter, Lucia.

But things turned ugly. Oksana says that Mel became angry because she was “smiling too much”.

“Oksana has recounted that Lucia began crying, so she went back inside – and Mel followed her in,” a source who is familiar with Oksana’s testimony, reveals.

“When they got inside, Mel started ridiculing Okana’s accent … In response, she said she rolled her eyes at Mel, which made him even more angry.”

The source said Grigorieva apologized to an irate Mel and “begged for forgiveness,” but Mel responded that Oksana was always irritated with him.

“Oksana said she told Mel that his comment was she was only irritated when he accused her of smiling at the gardener and made fun of her accent.”

Grigorieva then recalled: “This set off Mel and he flew into a rage.”

In the hours that followed, Mel returned to the house, after leaving for a break, at which point, “Oksana said Mel told her he needed to leave the house again, in order to show her and Lucia what ‘mean’ really is,” said the source.

“He also supposedly told Oksana, in regards to Lucia, ‘Take her! I will hit her. I have got to go,’” and Oksana took him at his word, taking Lucia to one of Mel’s other properties, in Sherman Oaks, Calif.

After that the phones started to ring. Those alone are a hideous spectacle.

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Mel Gibson went fishing while Violet Kowal takes a strip club tour

As TMZ found out, Mel has been out of the country all week fishing with two of his sons.

All this, considering that Oksana’s laywers tried to schedule Gibson’s deposition – for the ongoing child custody battle – right smack in the middle of his trip. The depo’s been delayed since Mel is unavailable.

Rumors from Oksana’s side say that this delay is evidence that Mel Gibson is not commited to Lucia.

It appears that Oksana’s lawyers knew Mel was away when they set the date. Meanwhile, back in Hollywood, his alleged former mistress, Violet Kowal had her first dual outing week with Michelle “Bombshell” McGee in some kind of strip club tour.

Sources close to the pair told TMZ the strip tour dates and locations are to be discussed.

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Rumors splits: Mel Gibson and Oksana Grigorieva

Even so, Gibson’s spokesman declined to comment on the reports.

After filing for divorce in April 2009 from his wife of nearly 30 years, Robyn, the actor made public his relationship with Oksana.

According to a source close to the ex-couple, seems that the split was amicable and that they hoped to raise their baby, Lucia, together. He has seven children from his first marriage.

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